Yeah, I became furious and deleted all my old poor stuff.
I was a bad artist, I mean, I still bad, but I made a promisse to myself, be better than ever, and work more hard on my art, but in other hand, I still too lazy, and I blame myself everyday. And this became a infinite loop.
But seriously, in the simply form of words, I junt don't have the responsability to work and rise to a new level, I'm just an imature, childlike.